My first sexual memories

Everyone has his or her little secrets, phantasies and...sexual memories. These are the first things that turned us on, the first things that welcomed us into a universe of pleasure. Sexual memories can be the reason of our sexual phantasies and current inner desires.

I remember I had my first sexual memory at the age of 7. I arrived earlier from school and I surprised my dad standing above mom and kissing her on the neck, on a coach in the living room. It was then when I had my first visual performance of an erotic act. I did not know what dad wanted to do to mom, at that time. I thought he was going to hurt her, although my instincts were telling me something else. He did 'hurt' her, but not as I imagined.

At the age of 8, I had my second sexual memory. I remember finding a porn magazine hidden under a box of old books, in my parents' room. I was looking for some school materials while they were gone, visiting grandma at the countryside. Instead of finding my books, I found something else, even more informative: the hallucinating images of naked women, naked men, and couples having sex. It was then when my clit flickered for the first time. It was then when I felt the need of touching myself for the first time...

My third sexual memory was at the age of 11 or 12. I was playing outside with my dog, when I suddenly saw two of my friends staying hidden in my neighbors garden and watching on his window, from time to time. I went there to see what happens. My neighbor and his girlfriend were having wild loud sex. I felt extremely shamefacedly but I still watched the show. We were all extremely curious. I can still remember those images.

All these sexual memories contributed to what followed next. Nights when I could not sleep, waiting desperately for a pornographic show on TV, frightened that my parents could catch me, endless hunts for any pornographic materials, magazines or tapes, when my parents were gone, and...secret intense moments of self-intimacy.

I still remember my first orgasms...


What are your sexual memories? Leave them in the comment section.